So happy that I have everything that I have in my life

Bill just left to go work in the Southern Tier for the next few days, Having dinner with my mom, roommate and son tonight then chilling in front of my Sunday night shows. It may sound boring and mundane to some however, thanks to a friends big mouth and a little "Scooby" time I've discovered how very thankful I am for EVERYTHING in my life. It may seem like small time but this is my apartment and it's paid for, no one has to be here that I don't want to be here. It is MY space. My bills are ALL paid for by ME, not my parents not my friends, me. I own everything in this apartment, I don't split it with anyone, I and I alone own it. I was the one that bought it, no one bought it for me.

What I am truly in my heart and soul completely grateful and thankful for is my friends and family. My best friend lives with me, I have but to go in the other room to cry on his shoulder, laugh by his side or crack an ice cold beer on the front porch with him. I just have to throw a text out there and 30 people are in my living room laughing and having a blast. The last time I had a bad time in life I had a living room full of shoulders to cry on and they went through it all with me one step at a time.

My family. My dad is a phone call away no matter what time it is. My mom is out here with us every other weekend. My uncle's, I just have to call. My sons' are becoming beautiful men and though we may not get along all the time I love them more than my own life, whether they know it or not. I am proud of them.

Bill is one of the most beautiful souls that I have ever met. And I can't say that he is my "Jack" yet but I'm hoping. He is a wonderful, loving, fun, funny, exciting, adventurous, affectionate, caring man. Everything I wanted and didn't know to ask for. I love him with all that I am.

So happy that I have everything that I have in my life and don't have to create make believe friends and steal photo's of internet websites to pretend that I have a good life, I'm blessed to have a REAL life.

Becky

:(

Just got the news that Bill has to leave tonight for work and won't be back till wednesday. Going to miss him terribly but have had a really good weekend with him!! We've had so much fun and nice, sweet times. Can't wait till wednesday!!!!

Bec

*Sigh*

Because I've been so negligent, my blood sugar levels have been really wonky lately. And I keep getting sick because it's compromising my immune system, this always happens when I ignore what my body is trying to tell me. Sinus infections, chest infections, bladder infections, they all take advantage when I'm like this because I generally don't get sick except a cold every 2-3 years. Needless to say, of course I got sick this week. Now normally I wouldn't be excited about being in pain and sick but something happened that made me smile through all of it. See because of my past 2 experiences it's jaded me slightly towards relationships and of course it's only been a year since I began dating so.....yeah, I expected Bill to see me sick and turn tail while yelling for me to call when I'm better, LOL.

Didn't happen. He stayed by me, took me to the doctor, bought my medicine, ordered dinner so that I wouldn't have to cook, rubbed my back and never left my side for a moment :)

He's everything I could ever want and more.

Becky <3