Changing my stars

I'm keeping my fingers crossed that my luck and my stars have changed. Since Saturday life has been allot cheerier place :) We'll see I suppose. But for now I am content and I'm just going to continue to be easy breezy because there is absolutely no point in stressing about things that I can not control, nor do I want to control. I'm smiling right now and that is all that matters :)

Bex

Partners

We talked for 2 days. We chose to walk this path together, again. I dislike that you did not talk to me about what you were going through, that you chose to cut me off for 2 days and chose to go through it alone. That's not fair. You got on my case for not using the words "Our Life" but chose to cut me out of Our life when things got tough on you. I'm here, for better or worse, I will stand by your side and fight the world but you have to let me! You can't choose what parts I see and which I don't, I love you. Not just pieces of you, the whole you. Did you think that knowing you were having problems would frighten me off in some way? Everyone has problems, some worse, some better. I resent that you didn't trust me and believe in our or my love enough to lean on me when you needed to. We are partners, together. If we are going to overcome obstacles than we need to do it like we should be doing all things...together. I hope this is just a glitch because I already lost you once and I don't want to again.

B 

Too too too much

Once I make a decision, then I'm okay. It's deciding what the best course of action is that always gets me. I over think everything and I spend entirely too much time in my head by the time I'm done with the thought process, my opportunity to act has usually passed me by. There are entirely too many things happening around me and too me that I have had no control over and to be honest, the times that I should have stepped up and done something, I didn't. I let it slide. Because believe it or not, I am not as confrontational as you might think. Staying in this endless cycle is just going to keep me running in place. I can't do that anymore and I can't keep taking care of other people and I can't keep putting myself out there financially and emotionally because someone else is unhappy. I hate it when the people around me aren't happy so I always do whatever I can to make certain they become happy. Usually to my own end. I have to do something now and I have to stand by my decision. Once it's done it needs to stay done. I've chosen the course of action and now it's time to snag that opportunity to act.

Becky

Allot of things change

It's been almost a month since my last post here in Hearts, mostly because I've been uncertain about my own. Allot has changed and then there is allot that is history repeating itself. And then there is a piece of history returned to me that makes me hopeful. I don't think that this Summer is going to be as anyone once had hopes for but I do believe it will be the end of an era and the beginning of a future. Then again, I have been known to be wrong so I guess it is up to the Gods and we shall see.