I have to wonder sometimes. Will it ever end or at least diminish? Will you ever stop appearing in my dreams, will your memory ever fade to something less vivid in my mind? I have to wonder, will I ever stop loving you, will I ever stop needing you, will I ever stop being IN love with you, or stop craving your smell, your taste, the way that you feel. Is it ever going to stop or did I truly give you every moment of forever when I said those words? Just when I think that I'm getting better, a hole gets ripped through my chest with a fleeting memory of your smile and how it touches your eyes. A stranger will walk past me wearing a similar shirt and I am bleeding for days. A song, a smell, a memory all of this shreds me but the dreams, those god damned dreams! So vivid, so real, I would swear on everything I know that they are real. I can feel your hand in mine, hear your voice as you lean in to tell me something, feel the warmth of your breath on my neck, I can smell your scent, I know it's you, truly you. I wake and it's like losing you all over again. The wounds are fresh and bleeding again, every single time. Yet, every night I hope in the darkest parts of my mind and deepest parts of my pieced together heart that I will dream of you again. Because even though it destroy's me it's worth the price just to be near you again. If only for a short time, it feels as if I am whole and unhurt as if it never happened, I am complete with you.
I promised you, every single moment of forever.
It seems that you will get no less than what was promised.
I promised you, every single moment of forever.
It seems that you will get no less than what was promised.
