I'll get over it

This too shall pass, I'll get past it. I'm stronger than all this and this is nothing more than a raindrop in an ocean. I will not sit here and feel sorry for myself, I will not dwell on woulda, coulda, shoulda. Yes I will be sad because I've had too much loss in the past 5 days to not grieve but it will not consume me or define me. Although I will walk out of this, I will not walk out of it unscathed. I've broken my own rules for a year and pursued a relationship and each time it has blown up in my face magnificently. I've wasted a year of my life searching for something that does not exist. Before a year ago, I didn't date, no one was allowed in my world and there were never emotions involved. I was financially stable, emotionally stable and content within my world. I miss that sense of peace and tranquility. My new goal is to get this all back. It's time to focus on rebuilding my little empire.