Life at a stand still but with pretty scenery

Of course as per usual my life is at a stand still. I'm waiting and waiting, stuck at an impasse until the Universe sees fit to let me in on the scheme of things. I actually believe that this time maybe it's for a positive turn this time. Only because I am exactly back where I was last year, right back at square one. Last year was a hurricane of negativity, every time I got myself up and out of it some new swell would bring me under and drown me. I lost allot of myself but consequently learned allot about myself and fixed allot of personal issues. It wasn't all positive though, as expected there was a certain amount of negative impact as well. I'm not as trusting or as willing to help as I use to be. And I tend to be much more suspicious than I ever was before.

Despite all of that and all of the things that I am getting hit with currently, there is beauty in my life, my Universe. True and heartfelt beauty that blinds me every time that I look at it, takes my breath away every single time. I am grateful every moment for this respite from the black clouds. Without the dark, how would we truly appreciate the Sun? A once in a lifetime God given miracle handed me my very own personal Sun :) It's nice to feel it's warmth after being submerged in the cold for so long.

Becky