I wonder

I wonder if anyone at all realizes the toll all of this takes on me? People expect me to be there when they need me for money, a place to live, moral, emotional support, encouragement, pay their bills, food, nicotine, etc. But does anyone ever stop to realize the financial and emotional exhaustion that I feel having to be everyone else's rock? Does anyone stop to consider how mentally draining it is to me to constantly have to pick up other people's pieces? Does anyone ever stop to consider that I fall to pieces too? Is there just one person that stops to consider how I feel when someone I love purposefully acts malicious to me because of their own insecurity, again and again but then expects me to give 110% when they need me.

I am so completely tired, exhausted from others expectations. Just want to crawl under the covers and stay there. I don't want to hear the words "Want, need" ever again.

Going to sleep.
Becky