Part 2

I've never been so completely altered by another person before him. In fact that's generally why my relationships end because of my inability and unwillingness to change anything about myself. My insomnia is all but gone and I actually sleep during the hours that I'm supposed to. I'm quieter and more calm for the most part, even things that would generally set me off don't. I find myself less inclined to blow up and explode when my rotten luck takes a turn for the worse. And even the meltdowns that I have are small in comparison to past explosions.

It doesn't bother me to have him in my space and it doesn't bother me that we always seem to be together because as cliched as it sounds, we share a very comfortable silence. I love talking to him. He doesn't let me get my way all the time unconditionally. I've needed some one to tell me no for a very long time.

The affection isn't over bearing or too little it's in the perfect middle.

He doesn't overwhelm me but instead compliments me as I think I compliment him.

I'm comfortable in our life together today and try to hold on to the now, the moments of the day until I lay down at night, kiss him and fall asleep with my hand on his chest.

I love him and the slight alterations that I've made to make our lives fit together are completely insignificant to me.